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Guest Post : Self Love & Recovery

Hey hey hey! In an ironic twist of fate I have ANOTHER Genevieve guest posting today. I guess we Genevieves of the world have a lot to say! As many of my readers know, I have struggled on and off with anorexia since 1996 so eating disorders and body positivity are topics near and dear to my… Continue reading Guest Post : Self Love & Recovery

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i haunt myself. i heal myself.

Sunday afternoon during my ketamine infusion, the wonderful man Robert who brings 3 east their meals stopped by my room to see what I might be able to eat for dinner. He is quite possibly one of my favorite employees at UVA Hospital and every time I am admitted I am so excited to see him because… Continue reading i haunt myself. i heal myself.

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bigger than my body gives me credit for: life with undiagnosed chronic nausea

Sometimes I think I can become so unbelievably accustomed to something dysfunctional that I truly forget how it looks to the outside world because it’s become my normal every day reality. I think this is probably true of all of us, we humans are a fairly adaptable bunch and when we are put in a situation that we cannot… Continue reading bigger than my body gives me credit for: life with undiagnosed chronic nausea

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there’s no wrong way to have a body: body positivity, disability, & why it’s ok if you still feel fat some days.

A few weeks ago a brave friend admitted on instagram that she still struggles with wanting to be thinner even though she is “body positive“.  She admitted several truths in her post that rang true to me, this one in particular spoke to me the most: “I think about my size more than I care to… Continue reading there’s no wrong way to have a body: body positivity, disability, & why it’s ok if you still feel fat some days.

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the summer i learned how to disappear: part three

This is a series of creative writing on how I developed anorexia at age 12. You can read part one here and part two here. June finally ended and by mid July it was more than obvious I was deeply depressed and had immersed myself completely in losing weight at any cost. I cut myself on my 13th birthday over something… Continue reading the summer i learned how to disappear: part three

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the summer i learned how to disappear: part two

This is part two in a series about how I developed anorexia at age 12. You can read part one here. I remember the first time I thought I was fat. It was around my brother’s birthday and we were spending the night at my father’s a.k.a. our old house. I remember how achingly empty the house… Continue reading the summer i learned how to disappear: part two

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the summer i learned how to disappear: part one

In June of 1996 at the age of 12, I began a dance with anorexia.  This dance is one that would continue for the next 20 years. Sometimes we danced feverishly like whirling dervishes. Sometimes we danced apart but synchronized. Sometimes we clasped hands until my knuckles turned white. Sometimes we swayed slowly and I… Continue reading the summer i learned how to disappear: part one