gratitude challenge

30 Day Gratitude Challenge: day five

I have always had issues sleeping. I am told that I was a lovely quiet well behaved kid but ALWAYS a terrible sleeper. This issue got a lot worse when my eating disorder started and I have relied upon sleeping medication for many many years to just be able to go to sleep and STAY asleep. At times it would be so awful that I would go through 7-9 stretches with maybe 4-5 hours for the ENTIRE time. For whatever reason my insomnia can get so severe that I have needed 300mg Trazedone AND .50mg of Halcyon to sleep (thats a lot of meds for someone my size).

The pain is part of the problem. I can have flare ups later in the evening and it can keep me awake for hours. Sleeping through the night isn’t something that happens often. It’s been especially crappy this month because of being in the hospital a lot where you are in a weird place, weird bed and LOUD MACHINES beeping every hour. Despite finally being home Im still just struggling to just get a decent 6-7 hour stretch. After the really scary awful flare up on Friday night I decided I needed to practice some self-care and help relax myself enough to hopefully sleep.

SO I drew a hot bath, turned the water a delightful pink with Lush bath bombs and bath oil, made myself a hot cup of my favorite tea, pulled out a favorite book, and settled in. Within 20 minutes I was dozing off in the water.

I slept for almost 10 hours last night!

Today I am grateful for sleep, especially nights where I can get at least 7 hours. It doesn’t make my pain better or change how I feel but my BRAIN feels good. I feel rested. I feel calm. I feel ready to take on the day. 


What do you do to help yourself relax?

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